I am never as strong as I would like to be,
But God is constantly allowing me to be stronger than I ever thought I could be.
I honestly have been freaking out as my launch date draws near.
The first step is training camp and many thoughts arise…
Thoughts about:
–Fundraising= Impossible, I’ve bitten off more than I can chew. But consistently your kindness, encouragement, and support proves my worries wrong.
–Goodbyes= Ouch, this is soo painful. All the people, animals, experiences, places that I’ve grown to love and opened myself up too. The process itself of opening up, truly loving takes time and honest vulnerability.
–Risk= I have great expectations and believe that what’s in store is more than I could ever imagine. But the truth is that I have no idea what this will look or feel like for me. I’m leaning into a complete unknown.
–The Process= Every step I take I am choosing to be completely transparent before God and pay attention. So, that might sound weird to you. You probably think, “He’s God. He already knows. DUH ” Well your soo right! He does know but there is a difference between him knowing and the choices you make before him.
The people and many things he allows along your path are reflections of greater truths, greater conversations he wants to have with you and its NOT easy. BUT it is a choice you have to make to face them.
–Fear= This is something we all face but for me its best put by a quote used in “Akeelah and the Bee” (2006).
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
– by Marianne Williamson
Reflections:
I began a devotional series on Faith, “Faith In Action”. For 4 days it stayed on Hebrews 11 outlining the biblical legacy of faith that goes before me. It begins, “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.This is what the ancients were commended for.”
I was reminded, time and time again those that saw the greatest outcome where pitted against pretty bleak and seemingly un-surmountable obstacles and serious threat. The outcome was defined by the level of their faith.
To bring it a bit more current I know some of the stories of great people within my Black heritage like Maya Angelou, Malcolm X, Paul Robeson, Baby Esther and the list continues. Finally, the people within my own family tree, friends, network and local community that never cease to inspire! To ELEVATE!
I choose to continue to be faithful!
Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”
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Gratefully,
Shea G <3
