So I haven’t updated in ages, and it is definitely about time. Life has felt strange recently. Everyone is in a transition phase where we don’t really know what to do with ourselves or what we’re supposed to be doing right now. I just feel a little off, but it isn’t a bad thing. I’m still joyful, and I’m not sad at all. Things just feel different. I have been getting very excited about the World Race. I think that I know deep down this World Race thing is indeed happening, and I’m being prepared to leave. The Lord has been teaching me a few things in this process:
1. Faith- He wants me to truly believe that He will provide.
2. Trust- He wants me to trust that what I am hearing is true. A lot of people that have prayed for me about this haven’t been feeling strongly that I’m supposed to go, but they also haven’t been feeling that I’m not supposed to. God has been teaching me that I need to trust what I am hearing. He is speaking to me, and although I do need to listen to other people, He’s not talking to them about it. He’s talking to me. I’m the kind of person that puts what other people hear from the Lord higher than what I hear. It’s like I don’t really believe He’s speaking to me, but He wants to teach me to hear Him and recognize His voice. I think that until I learn this He isn’t going to talk to people about me as much, and He’s going to speak to me in subtle ways. This is something He has been speaking to me since the very beginning of the year.
3. Leadership- I am going on this trip to become a leader. I have potential to lead, but it just isn’t being exercised here. I am not in a position where I have to step up and lead. I know that on the Race there will be tough situations where I will have to lead and naturally will. He wants to develop that confidence in me so I can be a better leader and organizer when I get home.
4. Discipleship- The Lord wants me to be discipling, and I really believe there will be people on my team that I will be close with and will be an asset to their growth. I also think there will be people that will be discipling me as I disciple others.
5. God is always good- No matter what happens He is good and His plan is best. This is one thing I know without a doubt.
6. Compassion- I have a hard time feeling compassion for people, especially people that don’t know Jesus. This is one thing I hate. I want to be moved and hurting for people, and I will be involved in things on this trip that will deeply route compassion in me.
Preparing for this trip has been so huge in my growth. I get to meet my team in one month, and I can hardly wait. I still need about $10,000, but the door is still wide open. I have to pray, I have to boldly tell others about the trip, I have to be confident in what the Lord has been speaking to me, and I have to have faith. Do I really believe He can do it? The answer is- YES!
