If there is one thing I’m learning for sure about the race it’s that being here doesn’t auto-magically make me an A+ disciple. It hasn’t given me some hunger that outsiders could never have apart from being on this trip. It’s still a daily choice to be still and be present with the Lord, but it is a choice that is getting easier and easier the more and more I just sit in His presence.
Something I have struggled with immensely since being gone is being in the Word together with other believers. There’s something to being in the Word on our own, but there is also something to being in the Word with other believers. I love it. As much as we all say we love being in the Word, and we are in it on our own, we aren’t in it together. You want true unity with other believers, to find a place where you have all things in common? Get into the Word together. Ugh, it’s great.
So yeah, we decided the other night that we would have breakfast and a bible study together the following morning, and a few of us were adamant about making it happen this time. We were done talking. We were just going to do it. And we did. Oh, how much joy it brought us to seek the Lord’s heart together.
Journal excerpt from Sep 21:
Nine disciples of the Lord sat upstairs, in a tiny cafe in Chimoio, Mozambique, and started the day seeking Jesus and aligning their hearts with His. We set the tone for the rest of the day. We asked for His ears and eyes. That’s what I came to do. Lord, continue to use me in this way. If all I came for… if all You want from me is to walk and to help my teammates walk in closer/healthier relation with you then Lord, I am here to the finish. And I thank you for choosing me and for choosing my team and for leading us. What I want to do for the rest of my life is to look through Jesus’ eyes at every soul I come across, believer and non-believer, and just help them walk into closer relation with our Lord. How truly beautiful are the lives of those who, with everything they have, choose the cross over themselves everyday.
I cannot explain to anyone the joy that I had yesterday because it’s a new joy to me. I’m actually not one to be so excited about things, but the Lord it really doing a work in me. I’m learning to make sure that my heart is aligned with His before I start my day, as I go through my day, and as I end my day. I no longer want to be this passive person to His work, but I want to partner with fellow believers and really seek out His people. I now see that I am not worthy of this task, but I am blessed to be a part of His plan.
