I have been living very independently and haven’t really believed that I was worth sowing into, or that others wanted to. But praise God I’m starting to believe that I am worth it. I can’t work while I’m in America and it’s been 6 months and I have 3 to go till graduation.

 
 
Dependence is a very scary place for me to think to walk into, yet that’s where I feel God is calling me to walk. Not just dependent on Him but on the body of Christ. Love always comes down and rescues me, so I refuse to sin in fear. I have always thought that dependence was a bad place for a person to be, because it leaves you at someone’s mercy. However if I never depend on anyone but myself and God; how can I do what God has called me to do?  I don’t think I can. When I went to India God said you can’t do anything with out me and you can’t do anything without the body of Christ… I think He is right… I can’t.
 
 
 
At this point in time I have run out of money. I have missed a few payments on stuff. I am holding the pain as close as possible so as to learn as much as I can from this season. I never want to end up here again, and by Gods grace I wont.

I am not one who likes to to do support letters and fund raise, because I don’t even want to come close to manipulating people out of money. I feel like God has asked me to let my need be made known at this time and so I am.

I changed my missions trip from Mexico City to San Francisco and so now I only need $400 for the trip instead of $1200. Plus the trip to San Francisco was way more on track with my calling then the Mexico City trip. We are going to reach out to hippies, kids at skate parks, and prostitutes in the inner city March 9 – 13. I have never really done this outreach in a place like San Francisco before and hope to learn from it. So if you think to support or pray please do so. Bob Johnson (Bill’s brother) has been working down there for years, and I’m really hoping to be able to go and partner with his ministry even after the trip.

Also I’m starting to work on a movie about my journey through the country of India and would love to have prayer support for that project as well. I will be learning more about movie making here at Bethel and my roommate majored in film, so the quality of the film should be as close to excellent as I can get it with God and the support from others.

My time at Bethel has been so amazing and I am so grateful for all the instruction and relationships that I’ve been blessed to make here. I feel like a different person.
 

If you would like to give to the missions trip to San Francisco please go to www.ibssm.org and click on the bottom link. I only need $400 for this trip and it needs to be in by March 2 at the latest.

If you would like to help support me while I finish school here in Redding please send it to 19327 Smith Road, Redding CA 96002 or if you are in Tumbler Ridge you can just walk into the bank and deposit it into my account by name.  Thanks for reading this and hearing my heart. I love you and miss spending time with you all.