You are so annoying! Why? Why would you deceive me so? Do you think it is funny to watch me miss what I should be walking in, all because you lied to me as a child? Why was I naive enough to listen to your lies? The truth is, all you have is lies, and I am tired of them and ready to walk in the truth that MY FATHER has for me. So shut up and get out, cause you have no place here!!!
So, this morning I came to the realization through sitting with Jesus that I did not believe that the promises of God were for me. I thought they were for others, but not me. I was not worthy of such promises. LIES! Bah! I hate the devil!
Dad (Miles), I love you! and I hate the devil for deceiving me through your actions. So I asked God why I would get so upset when He did not give me His promises. And Why this anger and frustration would rise, when I tried to use my birthright and nothing would happen. Two memories came to mind. the first one being when I was seven, I asked my Dad for a horse, he told me when I was 18, he would get one for me (he was hoping that I would forget by that time, I didn't). The second one being as a kid, my Dad would reward us for good grades. I remember my sister getting a snow-machine in high-school for getting good grades. I was excited for when I was old enough to get one because I knew I was smart and would get one too. Well, life happened and my Dad changed jobs from one city to another and there was a cut in pay. I did not end up getting a sled. When I turned 18 I asked my Dad about the horse, and he told me I had to choose between a horse or a car… I was going away to college, and I wasn't going to ride a horse to school, so I chose a car.
Both promises were not kept. Both promises the devil used to feed the lie that he has always told me "I'm not good enough. I am not worth it." I HATE THE DEVIL!!!
The TRUTH is, my father wants whats best for me. He wants me to be happy. He gives good gifts! I am worth it! I am good enough! I AM WORTH IT! There is no reason beside my own doubt (that has now been banished), for the promises of God not to be for me. I am a daughter of the most high King. I am a daughter of the perfect father. He has good gifts for me! I am a co-heir with Jesus, and my father loves me dearly.
I guess this is just a little reminder for those reading, that YOU Deserve the best from your Heavenly Father. He Loves you, just as he loves me! He wants what is best for you and your family. Do not settle for He wants that for others, but not me… HE WANTS THE BEST FOR YOU!!!
love you! more to come as the revelations keep on a-coming!
