TRUTH: I am desperately needy and completely dependent. I’m a stained and imperfect sinner, and there is no way for me to save myself. I am desperately needy of the cross, and am completely dependent on the Lord. I’m helpless apart from Him. He provides everything I need. He perfectly loves and accepts me. He’s patient with me as I’m still learning to live like Him.
Last Thursday, I woke up with a backache. I assumed it would be gone by lunchtime, so I went down stairs and started to put on my sneakers to go for a jog. Thankfully, since I was having a hard time walking, Abby talked me out of it. I went back upstairs, laid down on the marble floor and have barely moved since…
The Lord has been teaching me some tough lessons while I’ve been laying on the floor this past week, but most of all I have seen Christ’s love shine through my teammates.
I’m completely dependent on my teammates, FOR NEARLY EVERYTHING. They bring me ice packs, fill up my water bottle, bring me meals, and even feed me at times. I’m desperately needy of help, FOR NEARLY EVERYTHING! They help me change clothes, pull back my hair, and rub medicines on my back. They listen with love to all my frustrations and pain. I have been so encouraged by how they do it all with such grace, and continually remind me that it’s not a burden but they enjoy serving me in love.
My teammates have been patient with me as slowly every ounce of my pride has been stripped away. They are patient with me as I’m still learning to ask for help and depend on others. The Father’s love shines through them as they remind me that I’m deemed worthy of their help. It’s obvious they love me not for anything I’m doing, because trust me I’m doing very little to serve anyone else lately, but simply because they love like the Father.
