I’m not ready to leave. I'm not ready to leave my big comfy bed, hot showers, or reliable internet access. My to-do list still has about 2313580 things on it, my pack weighs about 30lbs too much, and I still have fears about all the things that might happen while I’m away. And I'm certainly not ready to leave family, friends, or my church family.
But…
I’m ready to go! I’m ready to go experience the Lord in new ways and have a relationship with Him more intimate than ever before. I’m ready to dive into the Christ centered community that will stretch and grow my heart. I’m ready to go tell others about the good news of Jesus Christ. I’m ready to go be the hands and feet of God as I share tangible expressions of the Lord’s love. And ultimately, I’m ready to become more like Christ.
It was a long week month of “see you laters,” and they grew more difficult as the week month went on. The Lord has blessed me with so many wonderful friends and family members, and given me good time with many of them this past week. I even got to celebrate a very early Christmas with family and close friends! Yet it still doesn’t feel like enough time with them, especially when I think about being away for nearly a year! But I’m learning to trust the Lord with my family and friends in a whole new way, and I’m learning to trust that He really IS holding them in the palm of His hand! After all, He cares for them much better than I ever could!
I’m learning I’ll never really feel ready to leave, but the Lord still calls me to go. He calls me to cast all of my fears and anxieties on Him, and He promises to provide for all of my needs! So… I really am ready to go!
Thank you for all of your support as I prepare to go in just 36 short hours! I’ve been overwhelmed with love along this journey! I also want to encourage you to not wait until you feel “ready” to do whatever the Lord may be calling you to, but instead trust that He already has all the details and timing worked out, we simply have to be obedient.
