What happened to Christian thinking?
When did it become acceptable to base our lives on our own
logic? Why do we avoid the confrontation of the fears that hold us back?
When you think about fears that restrain you, do you justify
them? Or confront them and go through them? There are only two choices here, you’re either open or closed
– it’s black or white. If your mind scrambles for a logical defense to justify
your thinking or actions, then, by whose standard are you living?
Fear is a crazy thing.
The command to “fear not” is expressed more than any other commandment
throughout the pages of scripture. This being so, why do we choose to accept
the lies in our head? It would be nice to know the answer, and I imagine the reason
changes from person to person-but it stops at me. I can’t be afraid anymore. I
can’t sit in my bed and pray for the Lord to use me every day and lose my mind in the follow-through. I can’t stand living in a self-conscious thought realm that contradicts everything that my faith should overpower.
A Wise man once said “Do not be afraid, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom!” In the same breath He follows with another command, “Sell your possessions and give to the poor.” His answer to conquering fear; action. Walk through a large fear and see how foolish fear is.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I fear failure.
I’m
afraid to trust myself.
I’m afraid of being judged, but I’ll judge you.
And
confrontation makes me nervous.
Just typing
those words and watching them form across the computer screen makes my heart
race. Knowing that people area about to read this thrusts me into the fear of vulnerability. It’s bizarre how quickly I begin to justify my fears, saying “those aren’t
fears” and “everyone’s afraid of that” and “it’s who I am, I can’t change” … and
then I feel the fear of judgment begins to work its way into my stomach. I can’t help but to think: “maybe these thoughts are just too open, nobody will understand.”
..Or maybe
everyone will understand.
Either way, I need change in my life. I know just what I need: Gods freedom- from ALL fears.
I am ready to be thunderstruck with change. This is starting today.
Much love
