Mel and I stayed with them the next night. I did not sleep that night. We continued to pray for their healing, and caring for two babies with different feeding and medicine schedules meant someone was always awake and crying. That night my love for baby Heartlyn was further solidified. I could literally feel her heavenly Father’s heart in pain for her.
He sees her. He sees all of his children. He died so that she might have life, just like he died for you and me. He hurts for her and is pursuing her heart. But I have to be obedient to God because He wants to use me to pursue her heart. When I hold Heartlyn and cry over her, I am loving her with the love of the Father. My tears are His tears.
That last night, Heartlyn’s I.V. came out twice. The first time it happened, I carried her down to the E.R. (the only place they could do it) as I followed the nurse. My heart hurt as they had trouble putting it back in and had to poke her probably 3 times. She was screaming at the top of her lungs.
The 2nd time, the E.R. Nurse just came up to the room to do it. She screamed so much and I could tell she was hurting. As she laid in the bed crying, I leaned over to keep her still. And I broke. I cried for the first time for this little one, my tears dripping on her. How much more does the Father cry over her?! And you and me?!
That next morning the doctor said Heartlyn was ready to come home! I stayed awake that whole day so that I could go back to the hospital to help bring her home. I held her the whole way home…joyful that she was leaving the hospital!
I have had the opportunity to work in the nursery several times this month and I have seen Heartlyn gain weight and gain her health.
May we always remember how our heavenly Father pursues each of our hearts and weeps when we weep!
I find no hope within to call my own
For I am frail of heart, my strength is gone
But deep within my soul is rising up a song
Here in the comfort of the faithful one
I walk a narrow road through valleys deep
In search of higher ground, on mountains steep
And though with feet unsure, I still keep pressing on.
For I am guided by the faithful one.
Faithful, faithful to the end,
My true and precious friend,
You have been faithful,
Faithful, so faithful to me…..
Selah-Faithful One
