I'm doubting intensely this week.
I know these are all lies from Satan, but it's hard to ignore them.
Essentially, I need prayer.
This race has my three biggest dreams all rolled into one, and I cannot wait for it! But this week, I've been adding up the extra costs on top of the fundraising goal and becoming really discouraged. I barely make it by as it is, so I'm struggling to trust that God will provide. I know He will if it's His plan.
Which brings me to the next part of doubting: doubting that the race is part of God's plan. For some reason, I have this intense fear that my dreams, that are within reach, will be ripped out from under me. I know if that happens, there will be a reason for it, but I'm terrified that will happen. I would feel like a huge failure if I didn't get to go across the world for Jesus, especially after being so close.
I know without a doubt (ironically) that these are lies from Satan, so I'm asking for prayer. I know prayer has incredible power that we cannot even imagine, and frankly, I need it.
I do realize that if Satan is attacking me, then I am doing something right. He wants to take me down any way he can, but I don't want to give him even small victories. Please pray for God to give me the strength to get me through this doubting. I know God is faithful, and that gives me hope.
