God is my Father. He is a good daddy. He provides.
Our team has changed members and names. We have moved from one side of the world to the other. We have a leader getting ready to squad lead. I have gotten a parasite. I am learning what it is like to seek God when I don't feel like it and be filled by Him when I don't feel I deserve it. I am being set free. I am singing a little bit louder and being a little more outgoing. I am pushing myself, haha only took 3 months and a crap ton of brokeness to get here but I am falling in love with God. All that He is. All that He has done. All that He is doing and will do. I rejoice. I am being filled and feel I have so much to give to people now. There was a lot of getting me out of my own way to truely feel the joy of ministry.
I want to tell you something freakin amazing. Answer to prayer. I recieved 500 dollars in my account on the way here but still had 4,000 to go. I was so intimidated by it. I wasn't thinking it was impossible I was just thinking- ok this is it. The Philippines- this is the last country I will in on the race. I'm going home after this. I had a bible study and God gave me—- Psalm 27:1 "The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" — I thought this was a don't care what people think of you if you aren't on the race anymore spiel. (i was pretty convinced i was going home). BUT it wasn't…. literally, 30 minutes later I had my sister blowing up my messages telling me to check my account.
4,000 dollars donated by an anonymous donor.
I don't get it. I don't know how. BUT God wants me here on the race for sure till March. I still have about 4,500 to raise to be fully supported but that is obviously nothing to worry about.
Right when I needed it and I surrendered all my expectations- God provided. He conformed I should be here.
I've been struggling for awhile about if God really has this for me and so for him to just take out that doubt has helped me so much in trying to fully let go and let God do what He wants.
I am pretty sure tonight we are going out to the bars and streets for ministry and tonight will be my first night joining my team. Our ministry is with sex trafficing victims- it is called "Wipe every tear" and it takes women out of human trafficing and into a house where they can go to college and be discipled. It is a pretty amazing organization. I've been learning so much, living with some of these women. The most definetly deserve a blog of their own so… more to come.
