I am beyond blessed. 
I'm not going to lie~ i had another freak out.  (sorry, mom, sandi, and marty)

And I was dreading going into Launch.
                          *Launch lasts a few days. we are in a hotel. and they help us prepare for the trip some more.
i spent all day complaining and being a big baby about feeling sick and how i don't want to do it anymore.  but i did.  and I came walked up to my room and heard everyone on my team talking.  (apparently i read the info wrong, i was way late)  I opened the door and everyone screamed my name, ran up and hugged me.  

All the anxiety, nervousness disappeared.  

I had a family, worried I wasn't going to show up.  Over the past few days we've hung out.  LIKE really~ we sat together in group time, we hung out during free time, we stayed up late just talking.  
Then we started testamonies. 
and not like "hey, i used to not love Jesus and now i do~so Yay!"  
more like, "here's my secret struggles. here's the depth of my heart. God is real!"

I am so honored to be trusted.
I am so blessed to be with this team.
I am so excited to go.
AND I AM!  TOMORROW MORNING!!!! 
Watch out Guatemala, the Kingdom is about to be Unleashed! 

*pray for me. i haven't told my testimony yet. (we have one a night) pray for me to feel free to be as geniune as the courageously beautiful people on my team.