A lot will change. A lot will be different a year from now. A lot will be different 6 months from now. I can’t help but think of all the things I will miss. I will miss birthdays, graduations, my brother and friends marching, the list goes on.. It is hard to think about. I don’t want to think about not hugging my family or friends for nine months. Thinking about missing these special moments brings me to tears.
However, as I prepare for things to change, I am reminded of all the things that have already changed.
My friends are preparing for freshman year of college as I sit at home on the REI website searching for the best tent so I will have somewhere to sleep.
They talk about the organizations they are excited to be involved with and their new college roommates. I do the same when I talk about the World Race or how incredible my squad is.
With graduation only 59 days away, I know my friendships are about to change. That is scary to me, but it is also really exciting. As some friendships will be tested by distance, others will be built through community.
People used to ask me if I was excited, and I would say “yes!” without any hesitation. Now, when they ask, I reply with “yes, and a little scared.”
Change is becoming a reality for my life. Change is becoming something I am having to face head-on.
I am scared – scared of leaving the comforts of home, my family, my friends, and all of the “normal” things that I have grown so accustomed to. I am having to lean on God for confidence to move forward with this journey I know He has so clearly called me on.
This journey is without a doubt the most exciting thing I have ever done in my life; however, with that, it is also the most terrifying.
But, if I wasn’t scared of change, I would have no need for God. In the midst of things changing, I can be sure that God will remain constant. He remains steady in His faithfulness to us, and his love for us is endless.
God has changed my heart and given me a deep desire to follow His calling.
Change is good. Change is necessary for growth. Change is happening and I am ready to embrace it.
Philippians 4:6-7
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Jesus Christ.”
