Those of you who know me well know that I'm kind of a homebody. Well, not kind of- REALLY a homebody. It's not that I don't like to go out, do stuff, and see people. I do. I really do. I've just really over-accepted the "Responsible Adult" role. The "I can't-go-out-tonight-because-I've-got-to-work-in-the-morning" thing. And there is nothing wrong with being responsible. I am so greatly thankful that my parents instilled that in me. I am a better person because of that.
But I have the tendency to take that to an extreme.
When I felt God pulling me towards going on The World Race the FIRST time, my first thought was "that would be so cool!" I knew I would see Him work in amazing ways.
My second thought was "Me? Go? I can't do that!"
I have a well paying job that I absolutely LOVE.
I have beautiful nephews that it physically hurts me to think of leaving.
I have an amazing family. I've been to every holiday cookout, birthday, family dinner night.
HOW can I leave this, God?
So God asked me again several months later. My answer was still the same. How in the world can I leave my life? I thought the opportunity was amazing, but I just tried to ignore it.
When He asked the THIRD time, I couldn't ignore it anymore.
I had been running away from this for awhile.
There's a lot of anger and frustration that happens when we (I) run away from God.
I had become so frustrated and unhappy because I wasn't listening and being obedient.
There's a boat-load of peace that comes with choosing to follow God.
Ever since I've made the decision to apply for and go on the Race,
God has brought back the peace.
I'm not saying that I haven't had a those moments of
"How in the world am I gonna raise funds?"
or
"O my gosh, I'm gonna miss my family so stinkin much!"
or
"How can I leave this job that I love with people that I love so much?"
That has definitely happened.
But o my gosh, my God is good. He is bigger than my fears.
He is bigger than the home-sickness that will surely come.
And since my God can move mountains, He can surely bring in the funds.
He is teaching me to trust Him like I've never trusted Him before.
He's showing me how I've been putting things
– good things like family, a good job, and being the most responsible 28 year old I can be
– before Him.
I CANNOT wait to see how He completely wrecks me and others for Him in the next year.
I CANNOT wait to see Him show up, like He loves to do.
Who's with me?
