Yes I am here at training camp!
We were given internet access for a slot of time and told to go write a blog…. Easier said than done when you're in the middle of an extremely intense week preparing to do the craziest thing you've ever done… How do I write a blog when I've had no time to truly process what it is that I am going through or how it is that I feel?
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There are a lot of things that I can't talk about in order to protect the secrets and surprises of training camp. But what I can say is that my current status is DANG, I am emotional right now! I was going strong all week until yesterday when they announced our teams and the reality of this decision REALLY sunk in. Then we had a very intense night that was meant to break our hearts even more for the people that we are going to travel the world to meet and bring the Kingdom of Heaven to, and for the first time in this entire process that I have been a part of for about 7 months now, I really started to doubt.
What am I doing? This is too much, too intense, too crazy. How am I equipped to handle something like this? My heart is too soft, too sensitive. I am not a good enough Christian for this.
If there is one thing I have learned at training camp it is that we all have LIES that have been spoken into us, whether it be I'm speaking a lie into my own self, or someone else has spoken a lie into me. There are so. many. LIES. And that sad thing is we believe them. We live in our own little realities rather than living in the TRUTH.
The truth is, all of those doubts ARE lies. The Lord has equipped me with everything I need. My Father has commissioned me to go. My God has prepared a way for me. I AM doing what I was made for. This is NOT too intence or too crazy. I AM equipped through the power of the Holy Spirit to handle ANYTHING. I AM a strong, but feminin woman of God. And my Father uses the broken, the ordinary, His weak and imperfect children, to take to the ends of the Earth and show HIS perfection through US. His power IS made perfect in our weakness!!
So I am currently rebuke the lies that I have allowed to hold power in my brain and telling them
NO, YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE. I have authority through Jesus Christ!
Luke 4:18 – 19 "The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight to be blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."
This will be the year of the Lords favor. Amen.
