Orphan or Son
I unknowingly have been walking in an Orphan Spirit. With that being said I have to repent and ask forgiveness from all of you (this is a letter to my team but I’m extending it to my readers) because at some point or another you have been a victim of my orphan thinking. God is showing me through my orphan thinking I have related our fellowship based on what you can do for me rather than how I can get underneath and be a blessing to you. In my immaturity, I have tried to use you. Please, forgive me.
The voice of the father of lies has lead me away from “home” into fear, striving for self-worth, self-assertion, self-judgment, self-condemnation, self-consuming, blame-shifting, fault-finding, justifying, and striving to prove myself innocent in matters. This orphan thinking has cultivated into a stronghold of oppression in my life. Only in daily walking in the truth of Christ can such a stronghold be displaced and Sonship be claimed. It’s in acknowledging and renouncing ungodly beliefs and hidden lies that displace an orphan heart with the truth of God’s transforming LOVE. So often lies and ungodly beliefs creep in so subtly that we don’t recognize them as orphan thinking. Proverbs 23:7 “ We become according to what we think in our hearts.”
The Lord has been showing me that I haven’t been for the Father’s mission but a mission to serve myself. I have used many of you to try and meet my need to be needed. An orphan heart is always striving but never achieving, always longing but never satisfied. It reveals that my heart is insecure with God’s affectionate love and that I still struggle with rejection and the need to be needed and affirmed by Man. Orphan hearts are usually dysfunctional they don’t trust people enough to talk about their feelings. Because I don’t know the Father’s embrace my heart is insecure with love and struggles with fears of trusting, rejection, and intimacy. 1 John 4:18-19, Infers that you can not cast out these fears but you displace them by introducing the orphan to perfect love. Then the orphan must make a choice; he/ she either risk opening up their heart and submit to love or continue to put up walls of self protection and rejects love once more.
So your probably asking,” But how do I know if I have the heart of an orphan or the heart of a son? How can I tell the difference? What are the identifying characteristics?” These are good and valid questions because recognizing and acknowledging your orphan heart is the first thing necessary for embracing Sonship. On my next blog are a list of the ones that I humbly had to repent of and take before the Lord to start claiming my Sonship in HIM!
