I woke up earlier than usual this morning because I felt the greater than usual need to spend more time with God. It’s funny, waking up early to meet with God. I usually don’t know where to go to meet him or what to do. Same was true this morning.
I made some coffee (thanks to having electricity!), sat down, read a chapter of the Bible and prayed.
I asked God where He’d have me go in this next season of life and what He’d have me do. It seems there are so many opportunities for ministry coming up, and they all seem great. Which one do I choose?
So I considered my passion to bring young men to life this morning and prayed.
“Where’s the best place to start, God?” I asked him. “What should I make my next step?”
He answered, “I’ll not steal that struggle from you.”
“I’ve got this fire in my heart,” I told him, “to see my generation in the states know you and live radically for you. I don’t know how to bring it about, but that’s my heart. Train me in it, Father. Be my guide. Bring me young men who are ready for something more. But I’m not quite sure what it could look like.”
I was looking for God to explain His ways to me and show me how to do this thing. Then He answered me again, saying,
“Seth, it’s seeing me. It’s hearing my voice and stepping out in faith. It’s not creating a formula or a program to follow. It’s taking the young men I give you and leading them back to me to see what I’ve got for them and stepping out in faith.”
I realized how systematic I was then and how I was limiting God to that view of Him. He had to fit into my perception of Him until He showed me that He is so much more.
