(Read letter in photo first)
……….And that’s how I got here.
Little did I know 3 months later the Lord was going to hand it right back to me and make it so evidently clear that it is His will and it. will. be. done.
If I had to give a title to this last season of my life it would be “Dying to Myself”. A season of breaking, piercing, refining, molding, and changing. He opened up my eyes to so many things that were filling me up that were not of Him. Dying to myself is what got me here. The practice of TRULY letting go and letting God. Emptying myself out so he can pour more of Himself in.
I remember the beginning of this season when I re-devoted my life to Jesus and then having this revelation of what it actually means to walk with Him is when He brought me to this verse…..
Matthew 7: 13-14 “You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who chose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.”
Only a few?….. o_o…. The first question that came to me when I read it. There’s more Christians than anything else out there, yet the Lord clearly mentioned “only a few” or in other translations “not many”. I knew right at that moment I didn’t want to be apart of the many but be apart of the One. Yes the path is narrow, and yes it is difficult and I believe that’s why even a lot of Christians miss out on it. But for me I decided in my heart that it has to be all or nothing. ALL or nothing. We’re all called but not everyone is chosen. I don’t want to miss out on what the Lord has called me to be.
Did I decide to commit to an 11 month mission trip around the world to spread the Gospel? Yes.
Did I chose to quit my full time job, leave my friends and family, miss out on weddings, miss out on so many birthdays, and leave what the world says is my “security”? I sure did.
Why?
Simple……
Matthew 16: 24-26 “Then Jesus said to this disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try you hang onto your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul?”
I will walk that narrow path.
I will continue to let go and let God.
I will continue to die to myself.
Not mine! but HIS WILL BE DONE!
-Sehdena, Daughter of The Almighty
