It’s been hard to find words for what I’ve been feeling with
less than 2 weeks before I leave on the worldrace again, and nothing is the
same! I don’t expect it to be nor is it supposed to
be. But what I feel can only be described
as uncomfortably comfortable.
Almost like the final moments in the waiting room before a boxing match. Or like the baby to the right. That’s how I feel.
Andrew Sherman once said, “The more
like Christ I am, the more like Andrew I am…and I’m more Andrew than I’ve ever
been!”
I know us Christians can use funny language sometimes. I’m not trying to get all “Christian”
on you! I know many of my readers
aren’t Christian. But
look…. the more I draw close to Jesus the more Sean I become. Does that make sense? This makes me love God more and
more!!! Nothing makes me more like
Sean then Jesus. I am more Sean today then I have EVER BEEN. I feel like I’ve come so far, but at
the same time I feel like I know less then I’ve ever known! The more I realize how big God is the more I realize how much Grace He has put on my life- and how much of a child I am in comparison to Him. What I’ve experienced and have been exposed to in the Nations, and the people within them, I’ll never
be able to shake from my memory or heart!- And I’m now accountable for what I
know! On one hand it feels like so
much and on the other I know it’s just a fraction of the “big picture.”
For this reason I go forward with trembling in my
spirit! Not because I’m leading a
squad, I have more confidence than I’ve ever had; But because I’m in a place of
authority and influence. This is
the place where so many people have gone astray and misrepresented God. The bible warns not to be eager to
teach- for those who teach will be held to a high account. So, how or why would anyone
profess Christ and choose to dilute Jesus, if that were possible, to a pale blue eyed
pacifist!! Who are we to omit the
prophetic, miracles signs and wonders, and the true spirit of worship!
You might be saying, “Sean, cool it a bit- do you realize you’re using strong words?!?”
Yes I do. It’s
the point! I’m not setting out to offend, but this is the line I
stand at and have crossed.
It’s the place I dare others to come. I admit I’m violently passionate about this stuff. But I promise you it’s rooted in my love for God and for others! Truth is I’m more concerned with what God thinks! I love Him and take 100% of who He is! I’m on the offense not defense! We walk on dangerous ground when we think we can pick and choose what we want to accept or reject of God and who He is. In other words, when we put him in box. I’m 27, and I have so much to learn. But I know this, God doesn’t fit in any box. He’s smashes them!! He replaced all of mine with life and freedom. Whatever I have been given up to this point I want others to have…and I pray they go well beyond were I have gone up to this point!
–Graham Cooke once said, “Therefore we honor the past but we don’t live in it. We live in the present with our eyes on
the future. We see past events,
successes, and failures as stepping stones, not stop signs!” I do not condemn or judge anyone, I know I have my short comings! But I will not relent or hold back my hope, love, and passion for who God is, what He has done in my life, or my hope for people to have a literal and tangible encounter with Him!.
When I think about this upcoming year I don’t see countries,
I don’t see what we will do! I see
7 team leaders who are responsible for 6 to 7 other people! In total I see 45 people! I dream of what they can step
into. What they will discover
about themselves and the purposes God has for them…so they may give the same hope away to others in the nations! Many of them, if not all, are already coming in as incredible people with so much to offer!- But there is always more!! haha! They are my “ministry,” if you want to
use that term. I just say they are my heart
focus and the reason why I’ve come back on the race!
Jesus took 12 and made them great. From those 12 the earth still reverberates with the echo from the lives they lived! Jesus said, “Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out demons. Freely you received, freely give.(Mathew 10:8) It’s pretty straight forward.
I get excited when I
think of what He can do in a year with 45 people!
I believe decisions we make can define us! One of my life
decisions is to do all I can to REPRESENT God and to live for others. This stuff is real! It’s not an exaggeration or mere theory/ theology. Again i have experienced and have seen too much- I’m accountable. I will not dilute, omit, or hold back!- and I dare to say nor will this squad! The more I talk with the leaders and teams
the more I’m convinced that they have decided to be the one’s telling the
stories of God’s power rather than the ones hearing about them!
I feel privileged to be with this Group!
