One of the main ways God talks to me and my personal favorite way is through confirmation. I have had some really cool confirmation so far this month in Vietnam. For example one of my team mates wrote in my journal encouraging me to see God differently. I normally see Him as Creator and All Powerful but don’t always see him for his other characteristics like Provider or Healer. So I decided this was a good goal for Vietnam. Our first day of Ministry here in Da Nang we did a prayer exercise and I was asked to pray to God as Abba Father. The very next morning in my first day back on my normal reading schedule some of the first words in Galatians 4:6 were “Abba! Father!” After reading that I was pretty confident I needed to concentrate on seeing God as Abba father like a child see his father.
Not only has confirmation encouraged me in the small things like that situation but this month it has helped me with large things that I have struggled with for years. Trusting God with everything in my life is something that I have always struggled with. For most of my adult life I didn’t even pray about big decisions because I was scared that I wouldn’t like what God wanted me to do. My breaking point came just before the I signed up for the Race. The biggest problem was I had no passion for where my life was headed and doors that I thought would make that passion come alive kept closing for seemingly no good reason. When I finally trusted God and turned my future over to him he showed me the Race which I never would have thought of if not from God. Not only was this where god wanted me because it was honoring him and serving his kingdom but it satisfied my desire to travel and see the world. For a long time I have wanted to see the world and do all the adventurous things the world has to offer outside of the U.S. but I never knew how to make that happen. When I finally trusted God, he blessed me and used it to His advantage.
Since that first step in trusting the Lords plan for my life I have kept seeking what it means to fully trust Him and know the plans that He has for my life.
That has looked like a lot of different things these last 6 month but the biggest is that God is clearly calling me to serve in long term missions after the Race.Yes that means being a full time missionary in another country (sorry mom)!
The part that I was struggling with the most is the line between waiting on him to clearly tell me where and what to do or trusting the abilities and desires that he gave me to make the decision that He wants based on those. God provided me with some really good confirmation on this struggle.
Here in Vietnam I met someone and he shared his wisdom about this without me even asking. He said “God’s will is mysterious and we might not get a direct answer on exactly what he wants us to do. But if we find something that honors Him and fits our abilities and desires that is exactly where we need to be in that time”.
If during the next 7 months of my Race God shows me a Ministry to work in great! I am ready to serve. If he doesn’t thats ok too ill keep looking for something honoring to him that I can do with the abilities and desires he gave me. God gave me the big picture plan of being a missionary and Gods plan is the best plan for my life. I am ready to trust Him where ever that takes me and how ever I get there.
