This month marks our seventh month on the race and it has hit me hard! I am homesick! Truthfully, part of me is ready to be home. I want to hug my mom, drive a car, go to the lake, eat good food, be by myself, among many other things.
On top of all of the things that I miss there are things that have worn me out too. For example, being with a group of people 24/7 is hard. Constantly examining your words, your facial expression and the tone of your voice to make sure that you are properly conveying an uplifting and encouraging message is exhausting. Trying to get along with people that you probably wouldn't have much to do with at home because you just don't really have much in common is tough too.
So right now I am experiencing a great amount of homesickness, and it's hard. I hate missing home, but it's good. Let me tell you why it's good.
This month we are living and working at Great Mercy Orphanage. I have the privilege of working with classes 4 and 5. These two classes consist of boys and girls ranging from 8 years old to 12. I have been spending this week having intentional one on ones with each of these kids and it's hard. It is so hard to hear their stories and not want to just sit and cry, but through losing my dad four years ago and missing my mom so much that I can barely stand it I have something to relate to them with.
Many of these kid's parents are dead, but some of them were dropped off at the front gates or left on the side of the road to fend for themselves. They miss their mom's and dad's too. My pain is nowhere near as lasting or painful as theirs, but I do have a small taste of it.
Their pain is tremendous and it's breaks my heart more and more with each story that I hear. Please be in prayer for us this month. We feel helpless sometimes, after hearing their stories. Our words can't mend their broken hearts, our hugs can't bring their moms and dads back, and our laughter cannot fill them with joy; but this is where God has put us, and so we all trust that He will use our words, our hugs, and our laughs to do something wonderful here!
I am still currently in need of $1,713 before I am fully funded and the deadline coming up on August 1st. Pleas pray that the funds would come in, and if you feel like God is moving you to donate you can click the support me link. Thank you so much!
