Before reading this blog please listen to the video that is attached, to better understand my brain process.
So this song(How He Loves Us) got really popular around the time of my dad's death, and it was one of those songs that always brought me such comfort through such pain. I remember listening to this song at his funeral and knowing that things were going to be good; and then I heard the story behind the song, and it was awesome! It definitely tore me up, but it offered such peace and comfort. For me, this song means so much and it has always been one of those songs that very simply brought me into the presence of God.
Going back a little bit in time.
I have always had this dream to have an orphanage in a foreign country. My dream is to open up a place of hope and love to kids that don't know those things, but instead are full of despair and hate. In that place I want to raise up leaders that love Jesus, are educated, know what it means to be apart of a family, and they know how to dream. My dream is that with a strong foundation in these four things incredible leaders will be raised up within their nation, and they WILL change their nation; which will in turn change the world! My dream is to change the world through children.
I have had people tell me that no one person can change the world. People have said that this dream will take too much time, energy, and money to come true. Sadly, I have bought into some of those lies and in a way stopped dreaming. I've gone back and forth with whether or not this is even possible. I have struggled with whether or not I really want to "sacrifice" my life for such an audacious thing. But lately it is all that I think about. I would say that it has been about a year since God has really rekindled the fire in my heart for this dream, and I'm so excited about it! But truthfully, sometimes the doubt creeps back in a little at a time.
Yesterday I was sitting and watching my friend Emily get her hair cut by our hostess here in El Salvador. While I was watching I was listening to the radio that was playing all of my favorite worship songs in Spanish, when How He Loves Us came on and it was like an overwhelming rush of emotions, and God's still, quiet voice speaking to me. In that moment I knew that one day my dreams would come true. I knew it because Steven, this man that I never met, had a dream to shake the youth of the nation. And there I was listening to the song that came from his death in a totally different language than it was written in, being shaken to my core. It was incredible, but that wasn't all that happened!!
The day went on, and I was just so sure of what God was telling me, and so excited because God's going to change the world, and He's going to use me to do it! But then we had feedback, and our contacts for the month, Suzie and Jenny joined us. After we were all done saying what we needed to say they both took turns going around the circle with the intentions of encouraging us, when Jenny said, "You guys just have to raise up strong leader children and change the world!" This took my breath away!
Throughout yesterday God confirmed things in my heart so much that I don't think I will ever doubt that my dreams are from Him again, and I'm so excited about this!! I just want to challenge you to figure out what your dream is. Not your bucket list, or the things that you you really want to do; but what is your Kingdom Dream? The thing that God has put on your heart, that you can't stop thinking about no matter how hard you try. The thing that people try and talk you out of because it's that good that they just can't wrap their minds around it being possible. What is your Kingdom Dream, and what are you doing to make it come true? If you don't know what that is, I encourage you to really start praying about it.
Find your Kingdom Dream, and go do it!!
