As I sit here in my quiet room my desire is to share with you what God has placed on my heart over the last week or so.
It's no secret that I have been fundraising for the World Race for what seems like the whole last year of my life. I have sent letters, asked people, made phone calls, had events, sent more letters, made more phone calls, emailed people, and asked some more. Some how all of that has brought me to the grand total of having $12,520.27. That number is huge, and in the beginning I didn't really trust that I would make it this far; but the truth is that I still have a ways to go. I need just under $3,000.00 to be fully funded, and that deadline is rapidly approaching at the end of this month.
The truth about all of that is that I have absolutely no idea where that money is going to come from. I feel as though I have exhausted my resources and I just don't really know what else to do. I have been taking this to the Lord over the last few weeks, asking for different ideas and trying to discover what my part in this fundraising process would be. After a while of no response from God I got an answer, an answer that kind of blew my mind.
"Just don't fundraise. Don't ask anybody else for money. I simply want you to trust me and wait on my provision…you can't do this, but I can," is what He told me.
As you can imagine, that freaked my out, and I fought it for a while; but I cannot deny Him of what He is asking. People tell me all the time, "Why didn't you wait until you were fully funded to go?" The only answer to that is that He told me to go in January, so I left. And now He is telling me that He is going to provide, and I just need to wait on Him. I am positive that people will not understand, I may even get some interesting comments and/or emails. To those I say, I'm doing what God has laid on my heart, and nobody can argue with that, whether or not they understand it.
I am excited to see exactly how God provides for this next deadline. I have no idea what it will look like, I only know that I will not look at my fundraising page all month, I will not be on facebook all month, and I am not going to spend my time in Romania trying to convince people in America to support me. God is going to lay that desire on people's hearts, and it will be incredible!
I will continue to blog throughout this month, so please keep reading; and I would love it if you would be in prayer over what God is doing in this area of my life as well. It's going to be exciting, and I will most definitely give everybody an update as soon as I have one to give!!!
