So we have been up in the mountains for a minute now, and things are definitley starting to get real for me. God is really starting to work on my heart in ways that hurt a little bit. It's so good, and I am not denying that in any way; sometimes I wish that I could hit the pause button though!
My background with Jesus has not been one based on emotion and breaking down into tears at every church service; but here it's different. These people are extremely emotional in their walk with Jesus! No, I am not saying that their relationship with Jesus is wrong; i'm simply stating the differences between their walk with God and my own. Their emotions at church are high, and we have many church services; but the one that got to me the most was the church service on Saturday night.
This service started at 7:00pm and it went on until about 1:30am. In the middle of worship I was reading my Bible when out of the corner of my eye I noticed something that appeared to be head banging. So I looked up and realized that their were four women in the middle of the church that were jumping up and down, crying, yelling, and whipping their heads back and forth. I, personally, have never experienced something like this before. My first reaction was to stand up and bolt out of the church, but I didn't do it. I calmly remained seated and just tried to talk it out with Jesus; when all of a sudden I burst into tears and needed to walk away for a minute.
I went outside, talked it through with some friends and went back in for round two. That was definitely one of the most difficult church services that I have been apart of since I can remember!
The following morning we had another church service and similar things happened, but this time was different for me. It was still difficult to be there, but this time it was like God was there calming my spirit the entire time. I can't explain it, I just know what I felt. That morning I came to this beautiful realization; I worship God the way that I worship Him, and other's worship Him in their ways; neither way is more right or wrong than the other, they are simply different. I will probably never chose to worship in the ways that these people choose to, but i am excited to be able to be apart of their services over the next two weeks, so that I can continue to learn how to be more passionate about the God who so lovingly choose me to be His daughter.
This month is going to be so hard for me, probably full of a lot of tears, but at the same time I know that God is doing so much in my heart and He is bringing me closer and closer to the person that He wants me to be….God this is so exciting!!!
My next deadline is April 1st and I am currently $2,500 short; which makes me $6,937 short of being fully funded! I would love it if you would consider being apart of this incredible ministry that I have been so privelaged to be called into!! This is just as much an opportunity for you to take the Gospel to the nations as it is for me, I have simply been called to be the messanger!
