Here’s where I thought I’d be at twenty-five:
:obtaining a doctorate degree
:happily married
:talking about having children
:teaching/conducting research in some amazing field
How many of those “expectations” have happened? Zero, zilch, nada.
Am I frustrated, resentful, or flustered that none of the expectations I thought would happen by this time in life have not? I used to be, but not now.
Now, I’m thankful.
Thankful because life is so much sweeter because I made the choice to let go of the plan I had for my life.
I chose to let go of the American dream and what society deems important.
Making those choices has led to absolute contentment and joy.
I am more content now than I’ve ever been. Content because I know God desires nothing more than His children to be walking in truth and following Him- He never promised a life that would be tailored to our expectations.
In 2010 I made the choice not to student teach, thinking I was going to get a PhD in the human services field.
In July of 2013, while teaching in a village in Cambodia, the Lord made it very clear that teaching was something I needed to continue doing.
Coming off the race I knew I needed to do something with the impressing passion He laid on my heart. As I began praying over what was next and where I needed to be, I made a public announcement that I was heading to Georgia in the fall to start teaching. Little did I know that God was calling me to Georgia, only to call me into deeper waters.
I expected to go to Georgia this fall, but that’s not where I’m going…
Returning home from the race was difficult. I would be a liar if I told you it was easy. I didn’t want to come back to America and definitely did not want to come back to Colorado. Ask my last team, they would be happy to bear witness to this- I was a mess. I was nervous and frustrated
Project Searchlight came and went- I was still a wreck- so ready to leave Colorado, so ready to close this messy chapter. I decided it would be good for me to leave Colorado ASAP. I started pricing UHAULS and looking for jobs.
I was running. My heart needed to be in Colorado, but I had no desire to be. As I prayed for God to open doors and make my “dreams” a reality I’ll I heard was “Wait.” My immediate response being, “ARE YOU SERIOUS? Lord, I’m ready to leave. I can pack my bags and leave for Georgia tomorrow.”
“Wait.”
Over the past few weeks I’ve realized that moving to Georgia would be comfortable. I would be settling. Coming back and living in Colorado has not been comfortable- it’s been challenging. I firmly believe God laid Georgia on my heart simply to see how I would respond to His call to be patient and wait.
Waiting has led to some incredible opportunities.
I’ve happily accepted a position as a missionary teacher/intern in
:COSTA RICA:
with Glory Christian School and Zoe Ministries and will be moving there in October.
“Radical obedience to Christ is not easy… It’s not comfort, not health, not wealth, and not prosperity in this world. Radical obedience to Christ risks losing all these things. But in the end, such risk finds its reward in Christ. And he is more than enough for us.”- David Platt
If you would like more information about Glory Christian School, Zoe Ministries, or how to best pray for and support me in this next season, please contact me.
