“My Life is in the Hands of the Maker of Heaven”
I taught and led a simple, easy devotion to the high schoolers at the Life Center on Saturday. I chose a well known verse, that i have known since i was a kid, Jeremiah 29:11. If you know the verse then you know how uncomplicated it is to understand and apply it to your life. I asked the students what they thought it meant? and how they’d apply it to their own life? and they answered as i assumed. “ God has plans for our lives, a purpose, he is for us, we can trust the Lord and not have to worry about tomorrow.” After the lesson, it was the weekend, a time to rest and relax. Honestly, I did exactly that, but maybe too much. On my off days this weekend, I didn’t get in the word or spend any quality, intimate time with Jesus. I didn’t think much of it until I could obviously tell a change in my attitude and demeanor, and frankly it scared me a bit. I woke up this morning with such a strong desire and urge to talk to Him, to just seek Him out that i couldn’t sleep. I felt empty so yeah duh. I was so determined to fix it and dive in. Today, every thought has been a deep one, every glance at creation has wrecked me, I am so thankful for it too. Basically all of this has caused me to wrestle with the Father, to struggle to understand his vast character, to cling to Him and embrace every aspect of Jesus that I can in every second of everyday, cause what else would be the point? Gods teaching me a lot about myself, i am figuring out how much more he understands me then i knew existed within myself. For example, I am external processor, I don’t know what’s going on in my own thoughts and feelings until i express it. I was so worried about myself and not growing in spiritual intimacy over the course of the Race but Philippians 1:6 struck me to my core with certainty that God has begun a good work within me and He will continue it until it’s finished and Jesus returns. Meaning, the fire cannot go out, the doubts, the waiting, the learning, the FAITH will never stop because of how impossible, yet comprehensible His character can be( Psalms 130:5) . Like literally personally fighting and figuring out first hand that this life has nothing to do with me, whatsoever, like literally I DO NOT MATTER WITHOUT JESUS.. what i want, what i need, what i think i deserve, what i feel entitled doesn’t have anything to do with me. It’s not about Savana it’s about Jesus. If i didn’t have him I would just be dust,taking up space, wasting oxygen, wasting food, wasting lifein my “own” existence. All this life is.. is to give him glory.. to be with the Father… to live life with my PAPA, my creator, cause really what is life without actually being alive and having breathe in my lungs. It is not mine, I do not own any of it. this body isn’t mine, the air he gives me isn’t either, it’s ALl HIS.We have to embrace Him, cling to Him or to be intimate with Jesus 24/7 and to what he has for us. “ You are the Maker of my heart, you are the healer of my scars, you speak life into my dust.” all because he bears my burdens IN GRACE. God is our Salvation. Psalm 68:19 …… so I encourage you today to challenge yourself, ask the Lord to challenge you to wrestle with Him ,no matter what you have to compromise, nothing else is worth it. “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist.- O. Wilde” JESUS is the way, He IS the truth, and yes He is LIFE, without him there is only dust, or death.
