I’m used to working with children… I love them. Ive always wanted to pursue a career involving them. I’ve interned in a kindergarten classroom for the past 2 years, babysat many families and worked in a YMCA nursery.
I’m used to routine and order. I’m used to students listening, obeying and paying attention.
I’ve had to throw my expectations out the door with anything I’ve acquired over the years from teaching children. Its a 180 from what I’m used to. There’s yelling, kicking, hitting, touching in very inappropriate ways, and no order. The students don’t seem to recognize authority, and teachers don’t recognize the importance of discipline.
Today, the teacher asked me to teach what a fan is. Just the basic word, with sounds and pictures. Sounds easy right? Well, I was continually interrupted by students running up to the board, not listening to me when I told them to sit down, and a lot of yelling.
I was super frustrated. I had no control. There are so many things that I want to come in and change. I’ve been trying to put all the weight on my shoulders. But the Lord stopped me in my tracks while I was picking apart everything that was wrong with this classroom:
He can do this without me. I’m not the one doing the saving. I am chosen to do His work but I’m not needed. He is capable to do whatever He wants to do without me. But He’s put me here to spread His love. I totally could not do this without Him. He fills me up in overflow so that I can pour that love out onto these people that He’s placed in front of me. And that’s my job. I don’t have to save the world. I can’t save the world. I don’t have to put that pressure on myself. He is doing what is needed just by putting me in this broken, chaotic classroom. He’ll take care of the rest.
Thank the Lord for His peace, patience, and presence in every situation. Thank you for transforming my negative attitude and giving me a fresh perspective every morning.
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