A fellow A Squader told me about this song, she said it seemed to fit my circumstances, and she was completely right.
So why would I question you now
You have provided
So why would I start to doubt
I’ve never been stranded
Abandoned or left here to fight alone
So I’m giving you control
I fought and grieved and mourned for two solid months. I hated the fact that I was sent home for my migraines from which I had been healed. I didn’t understand and a lot of the time I didn’t even try to understand. I tried to befriend my new squadmates and leave behind the idea of being on the race with my best friends. I was fake. I didn’t want to be their friend, I didn’t want to invest in them like I had in my old squad, and I just had a stagnant personality for awhile. FINALLY, one night after a solid talk with one of my best friends and a ridiculous amount of crying, everything changed.
My new squad of 52 people has already seen the quite vulnerable side of me. I was deeply rooted in my old squad and wasn’t willing to let go in order to start building relationships with my new family. One night it happened. I let go. Now, U Squad, I will never let go of you…I still miss the junk out of you and wish i could be a part of your journey. You will always be in my life, THERE’S NO GETTING RID OF ME! I love each and every single one of you so much and I pray for you constantly (I also refuse to take off my red bracelet). However, I have two families now.
This is what I know so far (and training camp hasn’t even started!)…
April Claybaugh and I have a weird “extroverted introvert” connection..
Jeremy Devers has already blessed my socks off…
Jennie Dugan was one of the first girls on the A squad who I opened up to, and I trust her…
Kyle Kunkel chose to sleep outside in Atlanta in a park, humble heart right there…
Paul Kirkland is not a hippie…
Laren Lewis has the sweetest heart and will be my co-southern belle…
Amy Noakes will be my outspoken best friend…
Jacob Roccanti is my best friend and brother, we have been through thick and thin together and he knows me too well to ditch him now…
Alexis Staeb makes me smile no matter what she says…
Ramon Tavarez is hysterical and has fantastic listening skills…
Sarah Wilson and I bonded over hating cats…
Cortney Wooldridge has such an upbeat attitude, life of the party!
Edwin Yau…I could say so many things…he is fantastic and we’re going to social work the world together
