Honesty is always good when you’re in a relationship with Jesus.
And when Jesus asked me to go on the world race, I was not ready at all.
He asked me, “daughter will you do the race, because you love me more than the comforts of your home?”
So I said, “Yes” even though I thought I was not ready at all.
The first month in India it was good, it was new, and I was doing a passion of mine, working with children who are poor.
The excitement of seeing places I only dreamed of and meeting new people.
Through that whole month, I was happy and excited about the newness and not thinking too much about home.
Then, month two in Nepal happened.
The first few weeks were good, ministry with slum kids, women at risk, teaching at churches, faith days, preaching at temples, and on buses.
I was really stepping out of my comfort zone, and I was loving it.
But then one day I got hit with the emotion of “missing home”.
I was frustrated because why should I feel bad about missing home, but also, why should I miss home because I am doing such great things?
And then it hit me, this wave of emotions called brokenness.
I started questioning God and asking why he sent someone out who was still wanting to be home.
Why did you send someone out who still has so much brokenness and want me to help the broken hearted?
Was I really ready, or did I jump too fast?
Do I trust you God, that you can get me through this season of being in a new place each month and ministering to the broken hearted?
Do I trust you that I will make a difference in each country and come back from the race totally changed?
Than a voice came to me and said “Now you understand what it means to be totally dependent on God.”
God told me that when I left home it was me saying yes no matter how I felt but also a time to truly show I trust God with every area of my life no matter how I feel.
Even though I thought I wasn’t ready God knew I was.
Month 3 on the world race in South Africa is a new test.
God has been showing me that in my brokenness. He is growing me.
He is growing me in the part of trusting him with everything I have.
I have learned I like to think I am in control in my life, and that if I do things in my time I won’t be hurt.
But the truth is God’s timing is perfect. He knew I needed to go on the world Race in January of this year.
He knew the people I would minister to.
The women who was working the streets that heard the love of Jesus from me, to the child I held for 2 hours, because he just wanted to be loved.
To the bus full of people who heard Jesus loved them, to the man who’s knee got healed when my team was praying for him.
See the truth is, if we step out in faith and trust God with our lives, we will be affective.
But if we stay where we are and try to control our lives, we won’t grow.
Each of us have a light that needs to shine, a ministry that lives in our hearts.
God loves the broken hearted, because than he can show how his love can work in all people.
God loves the people who think they’re not ready to do something such as the world race, because that is where he can be affective in a person’s life.
In that is where God learns his child will say yes even when they can’t see the outcome.
Truth comes down to “Trust”.
If you trust God, you will say yes to his will even if it scares you or if you think you will mess it up.
God wants us to trust him with every step of our lives, and if we do, he can truly use us.
I am making a difference in people’s lives in different countries, which I couldn’t do if I said no when he asked me to come.
I am changing and growing in my relationship with God in a different way than what he could have done living in the states.
Don’t get me wrong I still could have grown, but I wouldn’t have been living in my father’s will.
God asks us to trust him in the craziest ways sometimes, but remember if you trust God truly, than you will always want to be in his will.
Sometimes he asks you to change jobs, or step up and be a worship leader, or go on a 11 month missions trip.
And you may be at a place in your life where you do not feel you’re ready to do something that seems big and out of your comfort zone.
The question is: will you trust him to follow him where ever he needs you to go?
And along the way change people’s lives while your life is being changed?
I am currently 2 weeks away from my next deadline, and I still need 1,300 dollars.
Will you trust God and partner with me if he asks you too?
You’re not just giving me money, but you’re partnering with what the holy spirit is doing in each country I go to.
And you also helping me too grow as well as changing the life’s of the people I minister too.
Thank you and God bless,
Sareece
