My whole life I remember having extremely vivid dreams. They were always so colorful, so real that I could have sworn they really happened. There were times I woke up sobbing; having to make sure it was a dream. Ive woken up so angry at people because of what they did in a dream. My sister and I even had the exact same dream one night. We are not twins. Even weirder.
And ever since I can remember, I’ve had the same dream every night since I was little. I’m flying on the back of an enormous black bird, after a while, it tips and I fall off, jerking awake. It happens almost every night within the first 10 minutes of falling asleep.Every so often the dream progresses little by little, but never concluding. I wondered why I had some of these dreams.
Only recently have I been considering the importance of dreams and if they really mean something to my life, and if so, what do they mean?
The Lord answered that quite clearly two nights ago.
I had a dream that I was running through a field of wildflowers, the sun shining all around me, the wind in my hair. I remember there was someone in the distance, arms outstretched, waiting for me to get there. I felt giddy and free, my hair was down and I was barefoot. But, when I realized I was barefoot, I got scared. What if I stepped on a thorn? What if there is a snake in the grass or a poisonous plant? I took my eyes off the person in the distance. As soon as I looked down at my feet, the field turned to liquid and I plunged under the ground as if in an ocean.
And then I woke.
If that wasn’t a message from the Lord I don’t know what is.
There is so much happening on the race and at home that is testing my faith, testing my trust in the Lord. I begin to fear that I will fall; I begin to wonder if He really has full control. I doubt. I take my eyes off of Him. And I fall.
The Lord is calling me to a deeper and whole trust in Him; he is showing me how it feels when I trust in him, giddy and free. He also showed me how it feels when I take my eyes off of Him, falling and drowning.
In Matthew 14, Peter gets out of the boat, trusting Jesus to help him walk. Yet, when he sees how severe the storms are he became afraid and sank into the water.
“You of little faith,” Jesus said to him, “why did you doubt?”
Jesus calmed the wind and stilled the water, demonstrating His completely control over even the fiercest storms in our lives.
Through any storm that life might throw at us, we must keep our eyes on Jesus, trusting Him fully to be in control. We only sink below the waves when we are afraid that He has somehow lost control.
He holds everything in His loving hands.
Run with full abandon, knowing He’s got you.
“…And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. “
Hebrews 12:1-2
