A few weeks ago I set my bible, journal, and notebook on the table to begin to spend time with Jesus. I noticed that all the books were laid out perfectly, the exact aesthetic you would want for your Instagram.
My notebook laid open, with lots of notes on Podcasts and passages of scripture, my bible, written in, worn and ragged from these last 8 months of traveling, and my journal, leather, beautifully bound with a scripture burned into the front.
It just looked so spiritual. I could have posted it on Instagram with some hyper spiritual caption that made me look like i was on a Jesus high 24/4, something that made the Race look easy, something that made me look like a great Christian.
But what it would have hidden was that I hadn’t read my bible in 4 days. I was in a dry spell where I didn’t want to do my quiet time, my journal sat untouched, I wasn’t praying, I was stressed and I wanted to handle it myself. I opened twitter more times that week than I had opened my Bible.
What the picture wouldn’t have told you was that I didn’t want to read the Bible, but I knew I needed the Lord to help me out of the spiritual dry spell that I was going through.
Sometimes the Race doesn’t always look how I want it to, sometimes my walk with Jesus is lacking, sometimes I would rather just post the picture that hides the truth. But heres the real truth, Im broken and flawed and the only thing that sustains me and helps me is Jesus.
My life won’t get any better with the likes that I get on my pictures, my heart won’t be fulfilled when someone tells me “wow you are so brave”, because im not brave on my own, I’m not on this Race because of me. Jesus makes me brave, Jesus called me here, and Jesus is the only thing I should reach for when I need help and assurance.
Stop seeking those Instagram likes and begin seeking the Lords assurance and peace in your life.
So here is the picture and a more honest caption than normally would be there.
“My attempt to sit down and spend time with the Lord for the first time in DAYS….no desire. Jesus help me.”
