Oh how I love reading Sara’s blogs… They give me a small glimpse into her heart, a heart that I miss very much!
I will give you a small glimpse into my mother’s heart as I try to put into words what life without Sara here at home has taught me. Actually, what God is teaching me in Sara’s absence.
TRUST was something I used to think I had pretty good grip on, especially since we lived in Asia for 8 years. During this season, 4 of our 5 sons moved back to the USA for college. Not seeing these young men between August and the Christmas Holidays and then maybe a trip home for spring break, was tough, but I was forced to trust God for them: for their protection; for their physical/emotional/spiritual well-being. Last year when our youngest and only daughter, Sara, felt called to join The World Race before she would enter college, I imagined I would just simply trust God as I had done so before with her brothers.
Little did I realize how much more growing I had to do!!
Little did I realize how tightly I had been clinging to having SOME influence in Sara’s life!
For 7 long months we could only communicate via text and facetime calls.
Thanksgiving without Sara
Christmas without Sara
Feb 16th, without Sara as she turned 19
FINALLY month 7 came and we were off to INDIA to see our girl !!!!
The SWEETEST REUNION you can imagine took place on March 31st!
For 5 days we were together, and heard Sara’s stories and served along side her as she loved and cared the nationals there.
For 5 days we watched as she shared life with her squad mates, those she had come to love so deeply.
For 5 days we were able to love on this one who is so dear to our hearts.
For 5 days we were able to see first hand the growth that had been taking place in her heart.
5 days….NOT enough time, yet GOD reminded me that even these 5 days were a GIFT!
God revealed to me ever so clearly that HE has her, this darling, gentle, kind and beautiful young woman, and that HE IS ENOUGH for her!
I know my role as a mamma is still crazy important, but my heart is coming to see once again, with great clarity, that GOD’s love for Sara (and all of our kids) far surpasses mine and that HE HOLDS her in the palm of His loving hand.
13 more days til she is back home with us!!! My prayer is that GOD will continue to remind me over and over and over again that HE IS ENOUGH for SARA!
And that as her mamma, my highest calling is to lift her up to one ONE who knows and loves her beyond measure!
