Back at Training Camp, I was asked to be a Storyteller for my team. That position entails using stories as a means to communicate a deeper understanding of God and His Kingdom. I was very confused at why I was being asked when growing up I was told my writings were terrible. Automatically my definition of Storyteller became I had to encourage my squad/team to share their stories from the field to impact others by the power of God’s story. I felt that if I wasn’t living up to that expectation then I was failing Adventures In Missions, my team, and myself.
Before the Race, I was scared to share my testimony because of the past pain I walked through. The first time I was asked to share my testimony I followed a very specific scripted testimony. For the next 4 months, I continued to use my scripted testimony because I was afraid of letting God take control. Halfway through Bolivia God challenged me to give Him control and get rid of my script.
I freely shared my testimony for the first time at Hogar de Niños. This home serves boys who have addictions to alcohol/drugs, participated in street violence, and were involved with gangs. During this moment I realized my role as Storyteller was only meant to be a season of my Worldrace experience. God used this gifting and time to teach me boldness and confidence to have childlike faith as He speaks words through me. When I share my desire it is for others to see Him but not see me. Since getting rid of my script God has shown me what parts of my testimony to share based on the environment I have the privilege to share in.
Currently, we are at month 4 debrief and God has called me into a new role. I was asked to be treasurer for my new team. Immediately I was very excited to take on this position and thought of ways to love my new team well through this calling. The next day I woke up and the enemy had made his presence known with the fear and negative self-talk he filled me with. For the next few days, I went back and forth between the confidence and unworthy feelings. My new team has chosen to have grace and patience with me as I step into the new season God is leading me into. Through this opportunity, I will learn ways to merge financial stewardship and Kingdom.
For every purpose under heaven, there is a season. Times to be born, and times to die. A time to plant, and a time to prune. Times to kill, and times to heal. Through breakdowns and build-ups, God is loving and powerful during all seasons. I’m entering this next season with 5 new awarenesses. I want to be aware of not being ahead or behind on the Lord’s timing, waiting upon Him, discerning the times I am in, inviting Him to examine my heart, and renewing my commitment to follow Him and where He is leading me.
