When we’re little, we’re always reminded to be patient. Struggling with patience is not limited to our childhood years.
Months ago I was hurting. I was asking God to hear His voice. I was restless and longing for Him to lead me back into His presence. I did not want to wait, and I was so impatient that I thought He just wasn’t listening to me. I allowed my frustration to get in the way of how I heard God.
My control of life has consumed me like a wildfire and has slowly built this wall that I don’t let anyone tear down, not even God himself. Letting go seemed like a weakness to me. God began to tear down my wall just as fast as I could build it. I wasn’t making any progress and I surrendered.
God had been trying to speak to my heart, but I hadn’t been ready to hear him until now. In a Colombian hostel, He finally had my attention. This is where He let me know that I had the wrong idea of Him and reminded me of everything He promises me. When I can’t see, He leads me. When I can’t hear, He shows me. When I can’t stand, He carries me. When I am lost, He always finds me. When I am weak, He is always mighty. He will always be everything I need.
He promises that He will always be with us, no matter what we go through. Find peace in the truth that God sees, hears, and loves you more than you could ever imagine. Not a single day passes in which you are ever alone. You may feel weak and alone, but God is using the pain to make you stronger.
Personally, my relationship with God is so much closer than it has ever been. I found reasons to quit, but I also found good reasons to keep going. I came up with excuses for not taking action, but I also came up with compelling reasons to go ahead and do what must be done.
My story is filled with broken pieces, terrible choices, and ugly truths. It’s also filled with a major comeback, peace in my soul, and a grace that saved my life. His is best, and His timing is perfect. He’s got this. Everything works out for the best and you will be blessed.
