I honestly was struggling a lot in learning to be still with the Lord. I am the type of person that wants to help out with the physical labor activities in ministry and get my hands dirty so taking a step back as my team heads out everyday was hard. I began to believe some of the lies the enemy was feeding me; I began to feel like I was becoming a burden unable to help serve in the same capacity that I questioned my place on the team. But over these two months, God has placed me in community and as much as we get on each other’s nerves we really are there for one another. The gave me so much grace as I began to adjust to a life of stillness as well as coming alongside me in so many ways. Whether it be carrying me up a hill, bandaging up my cast, or praying over me I truly have been surrounded by some of the most amazing people. During this time of what I like to call growing pains with relationship with the Lord, I had so many of my team members just speak life into me. They reminded me of how important prayer ministry can be as well as how lucky I am that God loves me so much that He is willing to sit in stillness with me. One thing I think especially rings true is what my team member Blake and I talked about, he reminded me that this is a time of waiting. We talked about how by sitting out with the right mindset will drive my desire and passion to serve. Each and everyday I sit out I miss being able to more and more. I’ve learned a lot about knowing my limitations as well as knowing when to advocate for myself that I am able to help out. Due to having access to drivers I have been able to participate in some ministry such as redecorating a home. Other times when I felt up to serving but was unable to do the project my team was working on, I learned to seek out my own ministry. Whether it be pouring into my team members, finding projects to do around the house, or being a prayer warrior on behalf of others are ways in which I can serve. These are small simple ways in which I can serve but I have learned to love them so much more. I’ve learned a lot about seeking out my own ministry when there is nothing organize which is something I want to take home with me. After reflecting on my life I realized I’ve been been too dependent on organized events but the Lord does not work like. The Lord is ever present as long as you let Him in. I no longer want to live a life of running place to place constantly being stressed but finding freedom in the Lord guiding my footsteps. When I return home I am bringing back all that I learned on seeking out ministry everywhere I go. I’ve also learned and have grown so much in my prayer life. These last two weeks definitely was not what I would have imagined, honestly not what I wanted but exactly what I needed. Thank you for all for your prayers as I continue to wrap up my journey please continue to be praying.
