I came on the race knowing that Jesus needed me here, and I am now slowly being stripped away from that peace. From other people’s perspectives. From other people’s thoughts. From other people’s words.
It got to me, and it got to me bad. I questioned everything: what I was doing here, what my point was here, if I was even living for Jesus, if I was making a difference, if I was doing it all wrong. The things I thought about were endless.
Then, on October 15th, someone said to me, “even though you might not get to see the fruit, you have started something, and that’s really cool.”
Here is the story behind that phrase: I was at a pool 2 weekends ago, and a group came in that caught my attention. I went to talk to them and turns out, they are another mission organization in Cambodia. I wanted to be apart of it, since I was staying in Battambang for two more months. It didn’t work out for me, but it worked out for another missionary, who told me that phrase.
I planted a seed.
I don’t get to see the fruit, but I planted a seed, and Jesus is going to take that seed and turn it into the biggest tree.
For reasons I don’t understand, I believe Jesus is calling me to be a seed planter right now. This is something I have never thought of before. I have gone on mission trips in the past, and I have always seen fruit, but these mission trips were for a week… this is now my life.
You have no idea how much I would love to witness miracles and change peoples life, but I know it is all in Gods timing. I know he is using me. I know He has a purpose for me here.
I am here, for Him. I am here to be his hands and feet, whatever that may look like, and if that means just planting seeds for 9 months, then okay God, I am all in.
“It is not important who does the planting, or who does the watering. What’s important is that God makes the seed grow. The one who plants and the one who waters work together with the same purpose. And both will be rewarded for their own hard work. For we are both God’s workers. And you are God’s field. You are Gods building.” -1 Corinthians 3:7-9
To those of you who see things different than I do… pray.
Pray that I see the dead raised.
Pray that I get to heal the blind.
Pray that I get to share Jesus with people.
Pray that all of the Lords glory will get met.
Have peace that Jesus is working. He is always working. In Cambodia, in America, everywhere.
He has brought 50 something people to Cambodia. Some seed planters and some who water, I am currently a seed planter, and I am one happy gal about it.
