(Hello open and honest vulnerability -this is hard, just saying.)
Okay so, there are these really awesome keys made by an AIM (Adventures in Missions) staff member called keys for the journey. These keys are daily reminders stamped with prophetic words of something God will challenge you to understand in a deeper sense during whatever journey you’re on. So a bunch of us got them before launching, including me.
My key reads: “His“
WOW. Actually though – wow. Training camp was really hard, but God constantly reminded me that I am His and that He’s got me through whatever I go through. I think a lot of my problem at training camp was feeling incredibly insecure about being worthy/good enough for this calling on my life, but I am so thankful that God is a gracious Father who meets us where we are.
For a lot of my life I have internally struggled with my identity, pleasing others, and my value. While I can only imagine how incredibly frustrating that is for God, He has loved me fully and wholly regardless. Think about loving someone so much but they just don’t see it. Now imagine that your love is the only thing they really need to be truly happy and satisfied in who they are, but on a magnified scale, that’s God. God literally provides us with whatever we need and loves us so fiercely that all that we are can be found in His love. And I know this. I know that the things I struggle with could all be taken care of by just choosing to give them to Him on a daily basis and just embrace His love. But I’m stubborn, like real stubborn. Putting this into practice is hard. So I put it into a lot of different things in my life that in one way or another let me down. That just made my insecurities worse. So there I was at training camp just doubting myself. In God’s goodness He kept telling me “You are mine. That is your identity.”
This key is a gentle reminder of those words whispered to me throughout training camp. But that is just the start of what this key is going to represent throughout this chapter of my life and into the rest of it. And as God unravels everything to me, I am excited to see how this experience shapes me.
Now I’m headed into my first month of ministry and I feel confident that whatever lies ahead, this reminder will carry me through it.
