Something that I have been thinking about lately or something the Lord has put on my mind lately is the concept of feeding my spirit. I used to not think too much about the things I was using to feed my spirit until recently. I used to think that it was considered legalistic to restrict oneself from watching certain movies, reading certain books, and listening to certain music. However, the closer I grow to God the more I realize that the things we watch and listen to are feeding our spirits in one way or the other. We can either be bringing life to our spirits or bringing death.
Since coming back out on the field I have been experiencing more spiritual warfare than ever before. I know that I am being attacked specifically during this season, because for the first time in my life I am choosing to step out into the authority God has been calling me into. I am choosing to walk in boldness and to become a powerful person and that terrifies a certain someone. There is a real spiritual battle going on and it is no joke. I am being called to fight and I can choose to protect myself and my mind or I can choose to give into this spiritual darkness.
I have realized that pretty much everything starts with the mind. Our minds are extremely powerful and what we think about has an effect on everything we do. Am I thinking on things that are truth or lies? Am I thinking on things that are feeding my flesh or my spirit? Are my thoughts honoring to God? The truth is that we do have the ability to choose what we think about. We can choose to fill our minds with the truth. We can choose to shut down any thoughts that are not pleasing to God. It may take time and a lot of practice, but it is possible.
And the first step is asking ourselves what are we filling our minds with in the first place? Are we watching movies that promote things like sex outside of marriage and romanticize physical relationships? Are we listening to music that promotes drugs, sex, and alcohol? Are we spending hours on Instagram comparing our lives to other people’s “picture perfect, groomed” lives that they portray on social media? I ask none of this to shame anyone, but simply to call myself and my brothers and sisters in Christ higher.
All of these things have an effect on us whether we realize it or not and I truthfully used to not even call into question what I was putting into my mind. However, in this current season I have become far more sensitive to these things. About two weeks ago I was having extremely demonic dreams that were tormenting my sleep. I didn’t realize the correlation, but during that time I couldn’t listen to any other type of music besides worship music. I would put my headphones in and try to listen to music, but all my spirit wanted was to be filled with worship music. Don’t get me wrong, I love all types of music and I don’t think as Christians we only have to listen to worship music; however, during this specific time I had to listen to the spirit and choose what was best for myself during that time.
With all of that being said, I think this is an area that I can work on and grow in because I am definitely far from perfect. God is revealing more and more to me each day. The closer I get to God, the more the things of this world don’t fill me. I am becoming so much more aware of what is feeding my spirit and if the things I am allowing myself to think on are bringing me closer to God or pulling me away from Him. There are real forces that are trying to pull me away from God and yet I am fighting every single day to walk by the spirit and choose life over death.
