The awakening was amazing and I’m still chewing on so much of it.
Reid Mason spoke about ownership. He broke it down into 3 parts:
- A Good God is gave it
- I can handle it
- I can look past it
If God is good, constant, and knows me, I can trust what He has given me.
I have the power to make it better; I am worthy of it all because God created me. – HE believed I was worth it all.
I have the vision to look past what is in front of me and take action. I have both authority and power – permission and ability.
I can take ownership of my life – the good, the bad – and walk in freedom.
The bad stuff we tend to pack away in our basement. I love a good southern living staged house like so many other Christians. But churches are for the imperfect as hospitals are for the sick.
Reid encourages each of us to unpack our basement with Jesus.
I was so excited!
This sounds really great on paper. But when I went to unpack I was like – what?
So I went back to Reid like “help!”
He told me to ask myself:
What defines me?
What has authority and power over me?
Do you define yourself as someone who has performance issues? Does it limit what you decide to do?
Open the box and see what is inside.
My basement walls are painted with Rejection. All the boxes stem from that. It causes me to attempt to earn love, attention and acceptance. I reject myself and the parts of myself that have been the perceived cause of rejection in my life. It’s why I crave physical touch (massages and cuddles), why I love hallmark romance movies so much, why it’s easier for me to connect with others through pain and trauma, why I always have to have the answer and be “in the know”.
Nothing seems to fill my love tank… the bottom has fallen out.
But I know God is good. He who has began a good work will not leave till it is complete. I’m not alone in the basement. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit are all present. All gently guiding me back to their heart. Loving me into a place of healing.
Maybe They are the bottom of my Love tank…..
I encourage you to explore your basement. Don’t re-traumatize yourself. But be okay sitting in the pain and ask God “where are you in this?” Let Him show up. Be still and know He is God and wait for Him to move. Because when He does, He brings so much more with Him.
But in all of it His grace, His Presence is sufficient.
