Stretched out in the back seat on that dreary monday morning, we were on our way to visit my dad's mother in the nursing home. The gloomy day & stillness of the car ride directed my sleepy thoughts to worries of the health of my grandmothers before I left on the race. The unbearable peace I once felt was dwindling, and the enemy was making his way into my heart. One grandmother, who was in the passenger seat, had been recently tested for cancer, while the other, had undergone major episodes with diabetes and was now living in a nursing home. Both have been in and out of the hospital for a matter of months.
I began to let my thoughts drift ​when my mother cheered, "Sarah, look at the beautiful rainbow!" Immediately I peeped over my shoulder like a little child, wide-eyed on Christmas morning. My grandmother in the front seat also arose, & we all three peered out the window at the wonder of colors above a picturesque cottage in the country.
That rainbow stung me like sharp pinch on St. Patrick's day. It woke me up not only in a physical sense when I heard my mother's excitement, but in a mental and spiritual sense that the Lord was with me, and will continue to grant me peace, no matter what obstacle the enemy puts in front of me. The beautiful colors caught in the meteorological ​phenomenon had me floored, and I could see once more, nothing but His goodness for my life. I knew He had my grandmother's in His hands and that He would be giving them peace as well. The rest of ride, I of course dwindled off to sleep, but only after settling my thoughts with an overwhelming sense of peace returning to my heart.
The next couple of days were probably the hardest for my mother. We were anticipating the results from the oncologists any day, & restlessness of the unknown was eating away at her heart. The labeling of the word "cancer" had our whole family in a frenzy, & the future was hard to sort out without a straight answer.
As I was coming to pick up my mother and grandmother one day for lunch, I walked in on them having a serious talk in the living room. My heart dropped. ​I walked a few steps into the room ever so slowly, anticipating the news. The farther into the room I got, the more I realized a slight glow on my mother's face. She raised her head and cheered, "No cancer! It came back negative!!" I just about started crying with joy, & could not stop getting an image of that rainbow I had seen two days prior. I had no need to fear. The Lord had her in his hands just like He told me! He is so good.
Though both grandmother's health is still not 100%, I can honestly say that I am not worried leaving them for a year. After having the Lord remind me of his goodness, then physically show me, how can I ever have room for doubt? ​
I am thankful for the rainbows and clouds in our daily life. It draws us closer to Jesus as we trust in Him.
I will put my rainbow in the clouds to be a sign of my promise to the earth. Genesis 9:13
You are blessed for believing that the Lord would keep his promise to you. Luke 1:45
