The feeling of wanting someone to discover you, and yet wanting to just disappear. Wanting someone to truly see you and want to be near you, and yet wanting to be completely alone. Being in a room full of laughter and joy, and wanting to disappear from view.
Depression. I hate it. What I really want is to not be seen, yet be seen. I want someone to stop their lives to just sit with me and just be there. Saying nothing. Doing nothing. Just being present with no other agenda in the world.
Sadly, it doesn’t usually happen that way. People always want to know what they can do for you, but just sitting silently is not something they want to do. They usually want to talk about something, or try to lighten the mood, or watch a movie, or, or, or. I appreciate the concern of others and wanting to love me, but there is usually nothing to be done except prayer and silence.
My advice for anyone wanting to help someone in depression: just be there. Know that person well enough in their upswings to know what they truly need in the valleys. If I don’t love someone in happy times, there is no way I can love them in sadness.
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