We’re halfway there!!
Admit it. You started singing “we’re half way there, oh, livin’ on a prayer!”… Well, if you weren’t, now you are! Haha!
Anyway, we have reached that week!! Fusion 2.0 is five and a half months through our race, and have that much time left!
A couple of days ago, Full Throttle’s hosts threw us a “Halfway Party”, which was really a dance party with some homemade cinnamon sticks and raspberry sauce. As we ate our desserts, they asked us what our favorite moments so far were. I had no idea. I actually waited until I was the last person to speak, because I had no idea what to say.
As I opened my mouth to speak, God showed me something new. I had a single small moment during training camp, and then all of my big moments have been along a common journey and theme.
My small moment was my realization that God wanted me to be his disciple, not a “missionary”. Since then I have been learning to follow as closely as I possibly can to what God is speaking to me to do.
With Team Lift, I learned how to acknowledge and pay attention to my own emotions. As the oldest child, I often had to ignore how I felt in favor of what younger siblings wanted to do. Over time, this has led to me not even acknowledging that I have had feelings. I wasn’t going to get to share them, so why not just keep them from happening? I am reaching the point where I can feel and know I have feelings and emotions people want to hear.
Team Palpable Presence was where I began learning to express those thoughts and feelings. There were multiple strong personalities and loud personalities, so if I wanted to make my opinion known, I needed to be bold and talk. This was challenging for me, but I felt God prompting me to be more open and express opinions and thoughts.
Full Throttle is a completely new game. God is speaking to me, and he is challenging me to speak these words to others. The verse God has put in my mind is Matthew 10:27, “What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops.” He is giving me words to say. He is calling me to say them.
If I had not started acknowledging my emotions, and then intentionally sharing those emotions, I don’t think I would be comfortable express what God is saying to me.
This is my trail of memories. I cannot wait to see what God starts teaching me in the last five months of my race!!
#GodIsInControl #redefiningdisciple
#THIRD
