This blog is not a happy one or a funny one or an inspirational one, so if that’s what you were hoping to read you might as well stop now…
Lonely.
The word of the day.
I recently got some bad news from home and I realized that not only am I thousands of miles away from everyone and feel totally useless but that I am pretty much the only lone Hokie.
Hokie (n.): a member of a family of deranged
football fans that hail from Blacksburg, VA
football fans that hail from Blacksburg, VA
ie: Virginia Tech Hokies
Every other Hokie I know is with other Hokies. They are either still in school daily surrounded by Hokies and the beautiful campus of Blacksburg, are married to a Hokie, are working with other Hokies, live in the same general vicinity as other Hokies, or are in North Africa with other Hokies. And then there’s me.
Alone.
In Cambodia.
So I suddenly had this rough revelation the other day and my thought was, “Well I’m not alone, I have been placed with an awesome team of wonderful women and Brian who love me and will support me if, for once, I would just open up and tell them what I’m struggling with (which I probably won’t because of my pride).”
Then came another kick in the pants.
Teams changed.
I now find myself the only lone Gozo woman on a new team while the rest of the ladies are still together.
We all knew this was a possibility and I desperately tried to give my team to God with an open hand but I am struggling.
I know this is good.
I know this is for my benefit and my growth.
But I still cried like a cat lady who had animal control come and take all her cats away.
So, if you could just pray for me. Pray that my strength and my joy be restored and that I can find my comfort and companionship in the Lord. Pray for my new team that we become bonded and are able to grow together as a new team. And too, pray that my relationships from Gozo are strengthened rather than hindered by this separation.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
