Word of the month: Distracted.
Bangalore is a beautiful, busy, colorful, fast-paced city.
It is naturally distracting.
Then there are all the weddings at home I keep hearing about. In the last ten days, multiple long-lost friends have resurfaced in my life. If I get one more phone call/email about bad news from home, I’m booking my flight to Virginia. (OK, that’s a little dramatic, I’m not going home any time soon.) And did I mention that team changes are happening again at the end of the month? Not that I’m anxious about the actual change, but I have very high anxiety levels just from the anticipation of them; I hate surprises.
On top of all of that, we went to an international church this past Sunday and by “international” they mean very western/American; I haven’t seen that many white people in one place since we left home. Hello cross-culture shock. It was seriously the most awkward experience I’ve had on the race so far and let me tell you, I’ve had some pretty awkward experiences (read about one here).
Cue the panic attack.
Future plans have already been plagueing my mind 
(since I have none) and now it’s all I think about. After going to a church that vividly resembled one from home and shocking me into realizing just how short three more months is, I’m astounded at the fact that I have no plans; I’ve always been a planner.
(since I have none) and now it’s all I think about. After going to a church that vividly resembled one from home and shocking me into realizing just how short three more months is, I’m astounded at the fact that I have no plans; I’ve always been a planner.And if all that isn’t enough to occupy every single thought I have, well then I can usually be found staring in disgust at the fungus growing on my toe nail.
I’m learning, the hard way, how to keep my focus on God. I feel like I preach to people all the time about how our focus is so easily shifted and all we need to do is re-shift it back to Him, but lately it’s been getting harded and harder for me to do that. I’m learning that it’s a constant struggle to fight off all of these distractions but I’m not sure why it’s gotten so hard to do that. But I do know that I can’t give up, I can’t let these distractions consume my thoughts, otherwise I’m right back in the same place I was when I left.
