As I reflect through the last months in preparing for this journey, I can't even believe how the moment is actually upon me. As less than 3 weeks until launch sits on my mind, and I rush through these last days, filling up every second with chores of being prepared, and loving on those closest to me… I have on many occasions just stopped frozen in my steps, stared straight out unto life In front of me and asked myself…. Are you really ready for this?
Sometimes I believe I am about to wake up from a dream. I remember the day this journey began, and I think, in the back of my mind I kept the thought close to me that it actually would never happen. God is so BIG. He is so real, and HE has made this possible for me.
Going into training camp I kind of knew what was to expect beside the minor details. What I did not know, is that God would reveal to me in my stillness and listening days before team assignments that "I would not get the team that I wanted, but I would get the team that I needed." It's amazing how God always knows what's best for us. As far as this story goes, I'll be excited to see how God works through my team “Out of Ashes”, and to share our journey with you. This is my 1st team:
Looking back, I know what it's like to live life on your own will. Being so self-absorbed in that which makes you walk in your steps with no avail. But life is so much sweeter when you step inside God’s will instead of your own, even if it is scary.
Right now, I feel stripped and I feel Vulnerable. My emotions are RAW. As the last days approach me before launch, the last of the remainder of my things were sold this past weekend in a yard sale, as the last days of putting my career on hold approaches, as I leave my friends, relationships and family. As I have sold my car, closed accounts, and gave away my personal belongings, totally letting go of EVERYTHING in my life…
My prayer is for this journey is for a Transformation. In me, my team, my squad, in those who follow my journey, and in the people I come in contact with every single day. Revival through and through. I want to wake up everyday with the fulfillment of God’s purpose for me in life. TOTAL SURRENDER to His plan!
I am in awe of God right now. God has BIG plans yall. BIG. I can’t wait to see how He works through my squad and my team!!
And as always, please continue to keep us in your prayers.
With Love,
Sarah
