So, im currently on a short break from the field. About a week and a
half ago i got a phone call in the middle of the night to call home- which only
means one thing- family emergency. A blur of thoughts and possibilities ran
through my mind before i could get to the phone i thought i would throw up. My
grandpa had been in an accident, was life-flighted to the hospital, and at the
moment his organs were shutting down. Through a series of phone calls,
days, medical procedures- i learned that though he would have to have some
major surgeries he was “stabilized” which in my world meant
“much better, fine actually.”
Well it turns out that was
necessarily true. After a surgery amputating his legs, during a drug induced
coma- his heart stopped. I received another phone call Friday night telling me
to call home. I think this time, I knew. I got up, did what I had to do- then
cried, then prayed, then cried some more. So then, right then, was time to decide if I would
come home- arrangements had to be made, plane tickets had to be bought, people
had to be notified… So I prayed. Call it what you want, I felt in my spirit
that God wanted me to go. I just knew. So I prayed with my team, they had the
same “I feel this is right, but your race isn’t over” feeling- so things were
set into motion. Less than 12 hours later I was on a plane headed across the
ocean to Oklahoma.
I read in my journal an entry
that I wrote just 2 days before that first phone call- I had written “I say yes
to God’s plans for me today, even if I don’t understand.” I know that this
detour, this traveling without my team, back to a world that seems so unreal,
seems like a nightmare that I’m going to wake up from any minute and go back to
my regular ministry life- but I know Gods taken me down this side road for a
reason. Even if I have to remind myself every five minutes- God is with me, He
is greater than all my circumstances, nothing or no one can stand against Him,
I’m safe in His arms, He is working in and through me no matter where I am, He
is a sovereign God and I TRUST HIM- I’m going to stand on the truth. Im going
to remember that even if I cant see through the fog and clouds- I know the sun
is still shining, and still there.
And even if im alone in this
airport, or this car, or this room that my God is ALWAYS with me, He promised
me that He would never leave me and never forsake me- and He keeps all His
promises.
And when you know that- side
roads don’t seem quite so bad.
—All this to say that im
currently in Coweta OK going to funeral services, and hope to be back out on
the field sometime soon. Your prayers are appreciated. Love ya—
