Today is my niece’s fourth birthday. Not sure if you know this but she’s the prettiest little girl in the whole world and I love her more than I can say. As I realize I’m missing her party, our tradition of getting her picture taken, and her growing up this year… my heart hurts. She asks me every day we talk when im gonna come home, and doesn’t understand when I say it’s going to be a long time. It sucks when she’s too mad at me that im not there to talk to me, but it sucks even more when I hear her little voice beg me to come home and here her say how much she misses me.
It’s so strange because I love it here, im having the time of my life, but I can’t help but miss what I left behind. Life’s going on without me, and im missing it. I’ve already seen God do amazing things, and I know He has SO MUCH MORE in store for me. I have three more continents to go! The brothers and sisters in God that I have now are so amazing and loving, sometimes I can’t believe it. I know God has me here for a reason, but everyday He has to remind me to die to myself, and live for Him.
I had a life that I had to give up, I have a family and friends and people who love me and miss me. Part of my heart hurts to be away from them, sometimes I feel like I’m being torn…
