Copied text from a recent journal entry.
Lord, I am learning to grow my trust from the little things to the big things. While on the Race I don’t ask with anxiety what our next ministry will be, or where we are going after Romania; I just wait knowing everything is under control. So then, why does my mind not doubt or question plans for my time on the WR, but it does for my plans after? That is not a fair thought, and most importantly is does not demonstrate trust.
Recently, after giving a message to a group of youth at a church in Sofia, the leader concluded our session with prayer and thanksgiving. Before he began praying, however, he addressed us in front of the students saying he admired our trust. He was impressed that we were able to follow God wherever He led us without doubt that we were where we need to be. He said our obedience took courage and faith.
As I listened intently to his encouragement through our translator, I felt convicted. I was not this faithful missionary he was describing, that trusted God with all the details of my future. In this particular conviction I found both a challenge and encouragement. Although I did not feel worthy of his praise and admiration, I saw the areas of my life I actually was putting my trust in God. Heck, I was receiving this epiphany in a church in Bulgaria, half way around the world from my home!
Now, equipped with encouragement and a challenge, I want to take another step forward in growth. If I can trust God to lead me while on the WR, I can trust God to lead me after this journey as well.
