It didn’t happen.
Or at least not when or how I expected it to happen.
In Malaysia I felt God calling me to fast over Easter weekend in accordance with the Passion of Christ. At that point, and up until Palm Sunday, I had no idea what the purpose for the fast was or what I was supposed to be praying into. So I was preparing for this fast, but last month I hit a road block and had almost decided not to obey God and skip the fast. But God, in His infinite grace, sent me someone to remind me of the truths I knew and was choosing to ignore. Then on Palm Sunday, God told me the purpose of the fast. He said that my healing would come through this fast.
I assumed this meant that my healing would be an instantaneous, tangible, miraculous healing.
However, this is not what happened.
Instead I woke up Easter Sunday morning and felt no difference physically. Sunday night and Monday were really rough for me spiritually. I questioned my ability to hear God. I questioned God. I didn’t understand why I didn’t get my miraculous healing the way I expected. But therein lies the problem. It was what I expected. It wasn’t what God had said. I took what God said and changed it to fit what I wanted.
God didn’t provide my miraculous healing, but He has been providing healing. One day at a time God is working. In His time and in His way. Each day I don’t have to take my medicine for my heart or my liver, each day I go without pain in my knees is a promise of that healing that He is bringing about.
This past week has been a roller coaster of emotions, but God has taught/reminded me of many things this week. Lessons that I have chosen to ignore but have known deep in my soul. So here are the lessons I have learned:
1. God is faithful!
2. God is trustworthy!
3. When God promises something, He will fulfill it!
4. God’s timing is NOT our timing.
5. Sickness and pain are not of God, but He will teach us through those times.
6. God’s plan for us is health, wholeness, and freedom!
7. God can handle our bad days. Even the days when we forget His character!
8. God’s love for us is immeasurable!
So I live each day and trust that full and complete healing is making its way through my body. In God’s timing!
