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Team Rak Chazak and Team Fearless Laughter left Uyuni, Bolivia on Friday, July 25 headed for Trujillo, Peru. We made it through the freezing desert and the gorgeous Andes Mountains to Potosi where we caught an overnight bus to La Paz. We arrived in La Paz around 6:30 AM on the 26th. We had Saturday and Sunday to relax and enjoy the city before leaving again. On Monday the 28th we met up with the rest of F squad and boarded the bus to Lima, Peru at 3:00PM. We arrived in Lima around 7:30PM on Tuesday the 29th. Yes it was a 28+hr bus ride. (Side note: we only stopped 4 times, one of which was to walk across the border into Peru.) While this was a really long bus ride, it was what God used to bring me to a place of brokenness for Him to take me deeper with Him. The walls that I thought had been torn down at Training Camp have not all fallen. I allowed God to remove the one that kept Him from fully loving me, but the walls that kept people out were still there. I just didn’t realize it until this bus ride. God showed me that I don’t have the relationships with my team and squad that I desire because those walls are still standing strong. So for the next few days of travel, I got to process through this and allow God to fully break me and show me all that these walls are doing and keeping me from. By the time we reached Trujillo on the 31st, I was a mess. But I kept it to myself because the walls were still standing and I was not ready to let anyone see this brokenness. On our first night of debriefing during worship, God revealed the root/foundation of these walls. That root/foundation is a lack of trust. I don’t trust people easily. This lack of trust is not from a specific event where someone broke my trust. It is from a lifetime of never learning to build trust. Moving around as a child kept me from learning to trust people outside my family. There are a few people in my life who I would say that I fully trust but those are only because of the time spent with them and they have proven that though there may be a physical distance, they are willing to continue to pursue that relationship with me. |
